The Journey Continues

When I started my journey, it felt like setting sail in a dark starless stormy night. I wasn't sure where I was going and I didn't really care. 

The first thing I found was a blade and a shield. With that came honour, courage and friendship. 

Fighting brought out something in me that I didn't know I had. It made me stand up, it gave me a voice, it forced me to get out of my comfort zone, it forced me to face some demons and most of all, it built my self esteem. 

What started out as a scary and dark journey soon became a Hell of a ride. Fairly early on my journey I met a Knight. I was advised by many to not look for a Knight so early on but... I do what I want. This particular Knight is, in my opinion, is the definition of what a Knight should be, in and out of society. I went against the advice of many and it was the best decision of my life. 

Fighting became a lifestyle. It became me, and at some point it defined who I was. A brother in arms, Taranis, made it clear that I was on a dangerous path and the boldness and honesty in his words made me take a step back and after reflexion I realized that he was right. Fighting does not define me, it's a huge part of who I am, but I could be more than that. I started looking at my options, looking at what else I could do, learn, contribute. I turned myself to service. I was already doing some service, but nothing huge. At that time, I've been branch marshal for a bit but it's a fairly easy job. I like helping, I don't like to see people struggle. I decided to autocrate an event and I think it went fairly well. I started looking at the Pelicans. Many caught my eye but I was looking for someone who would understand my goals. Understand that fighting is my priority and that I question a lot of things. I was also looking for someone that my Knight would approve of. After thinking about it for a long time and after observing a certain pelican, I decided to be bold and I tested the water. Water was good...

Out of society, my life is pretty chaotic at the moment. I am moving away from my familiar shores. Moving away from where my courage was born. Away from my friends. Away from the people I love to fight and learn from. 

This weekend The Berserker and I went to an event in Fjordland. We were received with exceptional hospitality by Argolia and Snaer. An unfortunate accident that happened last weekend prevented me from pushing myself in the eric but every fighter fought me honourably. The people from Fjordland were very welcoming. The Berserker received her Silver Spark and took the opportunity to mention her intention in becoming a princess one day. I was made ambassador by Their Highnesses. My Knight gifted me with the most beautiful blade and spoke very touching words. It was hard to stay strong and my eyes water just by thinking about that moment.

I was taken as protégée by Baron Uilliam.

I am extremely honoured that he decided to go through with this relationship even if he knows that I will be moving away. I am also honoured that my Knight has no intention of releasing me and he made that very clear this weekend.

I've entered a largesse competition and I won. My personal favourite were the Roman wax-tablets!! I grabbed one for myself and I will be using it often.

The rest of the event was awesome but very emotional. I am sad to be leaving these shores but I excited to discover new ones. I don't feel very brave nor strong but I have many people believing in me that it gives me strength to face this challenge.

My journey does not end, it continues.